And another thing

Government torturers reeducation chappies are really poorly educated themselves. The ones in literature are so much more civilized and sucessful at their jobs and they do it with a certain style a finesse a panaz maybe not panaz. Snow by Orhan Pamuk or 1984. Classic civilized torturers.

I don't want to blow up what the gel is doing now. Ten years in solitary being force fed is what it is. It's not strick solitary it's just very difficult to get to see her. It's difficult some days to book an ordinary train ticket that's not what I mean.

So her mother was taken to the same hospital a few months back seriously ill. She had promised her mother that she would not meet with her again until or unless AF(SP)A 1958 had been repealed on the grounds that it might weaken her resolve. So they've told her that her mother is dying does she want to see her. And she paces up and down the corridor outside her mother's ward before finally entering her mother's room and her mother says you made me a promise what are you doing here now. And she had no answer.

The heroes of Snow and 1984 are ordinary self-seeking johnnie chappies, they want happiness pleasure, they are curious, they have problems with authority. They don't fit it. But what do you do when you have someone who doesn't really want anything for herself.

For me it presents a challenge to a sophisticated torturer. You don't want a torturer who could be turned. They too can go native on you. Not someone who could be seduced by someone who would appreciate the challenge. And they can take as much time as they please.

It so reminds me of the end of the Emerald Forest which is why I still love that film. The father says to the son come with me, with your family I can protect you in the city. And he says no you can't. And the father knows hey too much money involved no he can't. And the son says we will stay in the forest and we shall be invisible. Because by covering themselves in a paste made from powdered emeralds. And the father says no my son they will see you and they will kill you. And he says we will be invisible do not be afraid.

And in the end she wants me to believe that there are angels and watchers and a God who loves and it's not that I really believe, I know there is no other answer and she believes, I know she believes just simple faith it quietens everything.

In the film he leaves them and they blend into the forest. And some magickal realist nonsense about singing to the frogs so that it rains and the dam bursts. But semtex from his dad the engineer was still a good back up plan